when a flashlight is flickering,
it usually needs a tap,
a jump start.
maybe that is what I need too,
I am just a flashlight
thoughts popping and flickering
never quite making it
into the world
I mean I am totally fine
my arms are numb
is my speech slurred?
it sounds different in my head.
I mean obviously I am not thinking straight
obviously this will be over tomorrow
this time is the last, I swear
I mean i appreciate your concern but you don’t know how it feels to be so alone that the silence between songs is a death sentence to the warm glow of companionship
now it flickers.
I mean it moved
I mean I think it’s in the bathroom
with the trash strewn on the floor and my eyes in the mirror that can’t quite see straight ahead.
how is it less lonely to be alone?
how does one find temptation in a place worthy of recoil
I mean if you have to ask, then you’ll never understand.